I feel somewhat proud, somewhat happy, somewhat sad, somewhat guilty, and somewhat of an asshole for being “that guy” who got into Berkeley. I’ve tried to be humble and not to rub it in people’s faces, especially since a lot of people would love to have the option of going to Cal. But I am well known at ARC among the STEM majors, so naturally word spread fairly quickly and I received many unexpected congratulations and inquiries as to if I had registered with Berkeley yet. Somewhat amusing.
I also told my Statics professor, Dr. Bell of my acceptance right in front of my friend Megan (who really wanted to get in, also for ME, but was denied). This is mostly what I feel bad about. It wasn’t intentional that I told him with her present, it just sort of happened that way and then I realized she was right there. I’m sure she is fine, but I still feel bad about it and I wasn’t really sure what to say. I’m not great at consoling people. It’s hard to honestly say “Sac State or UC Davis is a great school!” when comparing with Berkeley. They are great schools, obviously. But there is a reason why Berkeley is at the top of the list for most people.
So yeah. I should feel more excited, but decisions have never come easily to me, and this one has weighed heavily on my mind over the last few days/weeks. I suppose there is a reason for everything and the hard work I have put in over the last four years has allowed me these choices. Now I just have to choose.